I haven’t watched any of the other series except Suite Precure. I like the animation and the two main girls are cute but their constant fighting just to cause tension in every episode is really annoying. Okay, we get it already. You have different personalities and different likes and dislikes. Please get over your differences and like work together already. But yeah seriously I would totally bang… F*ck I don’t even know her name. The girl that isn’t Hibiki. Kanade, yeah that’s it. They have musical related names I don’t know how I could forget.  Anyway, this bickering  didn’t even happen as much in the original Precure. Sure it happened a few episodes in the beginning and every now and then but Nagisa and Honoka eventually grew to understand their differences, and had lesbian sex every so often. I had the biggest crush on Honoka when I was 19. Oh lawd.

Well, I started the latest Precure yesterday. I was actually surprised to find a new one quickly shoveled out right after Suite Precure finished. (Is this going to be commonplace?) I find it really interesting because it seems like the girls have a lot of personality for a magical girl show, I guess? From the first episode it seemed pretty fun although a little fake, but I don’t think anyone at a young age really cares, but then again we all know this series is REALLY geared towards adult males. I mean, I watch it. Also I think this series would make the best drinking game. For example, take a shot every time the word HAPPY is mentioned. Yeah, you’d be dead before the end of the episode but that’s how hardcore this show is. Even though all their designs look like… Um redesigns/rehashes of the Precure 5 girls. Yeah, that’s Japanese innovation for you! None whatsoever.

She’s so looking at a drawing of my pOnOs.

So ever have a time where you start watching a show because you see a particular character pop up in the images you see or the prons you view? Recently for me one character is Yayoi from Precure Smile and is the main reason I started to watch the show to be honest. I just SO want to stick it in her. I’m not really into blondes, but the blonde haired girls of Precure always seem to be the most attractive to me. Well, except Hikari… I also like Urara despite never seeing any of Precure 5. Well, maybe someday… But yeah, Yayoi. She’s a total crybaby so to show my love I absolutely need to stick it in. I’d raep her with such great force. She’d cry but I’d stick it in so far she cries so much tears can’t come out anymore. That’s how you know you’re breaking her. I just want her to become my slave. I want to break her mind more and more with each thrust of my massive pOnOs. Yeah, that would be how I’d do it. Then I’d kill her. When she’s totally mindless and eat her heart for her powers.

Kill a loli, eat her heart for her magical powers.

Mmmm. I’d totally love to be a human version of Kyuubey.

I ask, why am I here? I feel horrible to be here because I know I am just here for anime, games and manga. It’s the truth. For all those things and I’m using this kind of job to further my Japanese abilities so I can get into a job I want and to be closer to the things I love. I mean it’s just not me though. A lot of people come to these countries for various reasons and it’s never really because they honestly want to teach English. When I lived in Korea, no one was a legit teacher. From my experiences it was mostly just a bunch of frat boys looking for Asian pussy or people trying to get away from the law in their own country. Here in Japan, I know people that are here because they just can’t find jobs back home, because they need money to pay off loans, because they just want to travel and explore a foreign land… And the list goes on, and it’s those things that just get me wrapped up on some days. Because I know Japanese people are so prideful and xenophobic, I feel like by being here in their country I am hated by the entire country. It’s probably just a form of paranoia on my part because I don’t really interact with Japanese. I don’t know how they feel. But I can’t help but feel that this is how they feel about me as a foreigner in their country, and one that likes anime on top of that.

Teaching. English. In. A. Foreign. Country. IS. A. LIE. I thought it was just Korea but I guess it’s really anywhere you go. Why does this even happen? It’s fake and I honestly hate fake things. Why am I even here as some kind of English talking parrot? I don’t mind it. It’s easy work, but I feel like I’m not suited for it. I wasn’t trained to teach English in the slightest. It wasn’t even what I studied ever. I studied Japanese not English, and the fact they have English speakers teaching English just by the very fact they can speak English boggles my mind. Why is this happening here? Who thought this was a good idea? I feel like a burden is put on me as an English speaker to try and get activities together that will entertain students like English is some kind of game. While I do feel this is fine, but how do you make learning a language interesting for a group of students who feel disinterested? I can’t make a group of kids find an interest in something. So I feel at a loss sometimes.

This is because the English program is so messed up in Japan. Kids are just taught English to take tests, and while this is fine. I’m not going to argue with what Japan wants to teach its children. But it’s just the implementing of how they are taught is my problem. I’m not a teacher, but I do work with a Japanese one daily. I have nothing against this woman. She is a great teacher and I’ve honestly learned a lot from her. It’s just I feel like Japanese English teachers in general have no clue how to really utilize the native English speaker in the classroom. Now this is why I feel as lost as I do. I’ve talked to a few people and got opposing viewpoints. Some people have told me that it’s the Japanese English teacher that can make or break the native English speaker (ALT from here on). For example, even the worst ALT could shine if utilized by a knowledgeable Japanese English teacher (JTE from here on).

Then on the other hand I’ve had people tell me that it’s my job despite I have no certification nor training. That it is my responsibility to just some how know what to do. The JTE expects me to know and can do it. While I do agree that it isn’t the JTE’s responsibility to teach the ALT how to teach. I do feel a level of responsibility should weigh on the Japanese English teacher to help the ALT understand or help guide the ALT on what kind of thing they hope to achieve each day. I mean it is their government that allows unqualified people to help teacher their children English. So, please could you throw me a bone here?

I do go to training, but we all to some degree just don’t see the point in it. Sure you might pick out an interesting idea or something, but it’s just a bunch of foreigner trying to figure out how we can make learning English fun for Japanese kids. I just feel like they’re preaching to the wrong choir. Japanese English teachers, from what I know, don’t even get any kind of training when it comes to how to effectively use an ALT if they have one.

And I guess I’m just finding the culture shock of working in Japan. It’s nothing bad, but it’s just I largely feel like an outsider. But I guess that’s typical when working in a place like Japan. I don’t feel that way when I’m at school working there everyday. I mean, I go in and do my job but I just don’t know how to explain it. I guess I  just feel some kind of aftershock from the school ceremony we had over the weekend. I wasn’t told how to dress and so while I dressed nicely but perhaps it was more on the casual side. Talking to students they wondered why I wasn’t dressed in a suit and tie, and I could see the shame in Japanese teacher’s eyes. I honestly felt shame, but I also wondered why? I mean, I showed up. I didn’t have to, but I came to show my support. I didn’t even think I would be standing with the other teachers. I thought I was just going to come as some regular person from the audience.

And then after the ceremony, I was forgotten. The students went off to have lunch in their classrooms. I was abandoned. I couldn’t do anything. I felt helpless. So I ran away. Because of my shame and embarrassment. I ran away. I didn’t come back for the after event. I felt unwanted. I saw how shallow the bonds I have with my Japanese coworkers and students are, and it hurt me. It was then I understood why the JTE suggested I don’t come until after lunch.But I wanted to come. I wanted to show my support…

Becoming an adult is very difficult and not to mention being a “teacher”. It’s a tough role because I’m only 24 and I don’t find myself an adult by any means so I’m just as much a kid as my students are, and we often joke around as such. And I’m just being being tough on myself because my age is both my strength and my vice. I’m inexperienced and not qualified. They know I’m trying my best, but I feel like it’s not enough. I feel like they deserve better and more. But I don’t know how to do this. I’m doing something, while fun, I’m not qualified for. And for that reason I feel like I need to get out of it as soon as possible for someone who knows what they’re doing. But it doesn’t change the fact I’m just taking advantage of this English teaching system while it is in place. And I feel resentment because of it. Am I the only one that feels like it’s wrong that they hire people with no qualifications to do this kind of work?

A group of old ladies.

As the release day of NEW Love Plus draws near, I can’t help but desire the game. The problem is I don’t have any money. Once I get paid, I instantly spend all of it on anime, manga and video games that day or the following day. It’s such a horrifying drug like addiction that pleases me and makes me very happy though. I just want to be surrounded in anime. I just want to be one of those guys that has a lot of anime and anime related things in his house. I just want things because it’s those things that make me feel fulfilled and make me happy. Owning things and controlling them. They’re mine. Besides, it’s not like anyone ever comes over to my house anyway. But spending all my money on anime does leave me starving until the next paycheck. Meh I guess it works out since I do get a school lunch everyday. I just spend whatever money I have left on alcohol on the weekends as you know from my Twitter. So starving myself kinda does balance things out nutritionally I guess.But it’s a shame because I’ve been wanting the new Love Plus game for a while, but I pretty much lost interest when they had pushed it back, which then resulted in me putting off buying a 3DS…

I was actually pretty angry they pushed it back. I was so hyped for it and Idolm@ster 2. But now I’m not entirely all that hyped for it honestly. The original game was groundbreaking, so naturally I was really hyped for it. And just having to wait for them to get more copies so they could send me mine made me want it even more. But this 3DS one… I don’t know what to think. I’m mostly put off by the new add ons which don’t even seem all that exciting. OH! A camera! OH! It’s in 3D! OH! The girl can appear anywhere I am! So stupid but typical. To the Japanese, innovation is just slapping a new hat on a doll. The original product is there but all they do is add a few new gimmicks and PRESTO they call it a new game! Rinse and repeat and the status quo is set. Peace is restored. You never see this with American products. Americans are always looking for the next best thing. If it’s not good or more of they same then they throw it out. Or they don’t buy it as so more shit like it doesn’t get made. Americans, I feel, are always asking, “How can we take this and make it new and better? More efficient?” But no, Japanese are stuck in their old ways.

Just because it has been done for years doesn’t mean it’s the best way. Like my latest beef with Japanese culture is taking off your shoes. I can understand why they did it in the past, but this is 2012. You don’t need to do it anymore. Especially in buildings like schools or hospitals where you never encounter tatami mats. It’s retarded, and I hate having to waste the time to take off my shoes and then to put on slippers or some kind of other shoe that is considered “JUST FOR INSIDE LOL”.  One time I forgot my sneakers so I was made to wear slippers the entire day. Do you know how freakin cold it is in a Japanese school? They know nothing about the meaning of heating a building. It’s really a stupid custom honestly, and I think Japanese just continue to do it to try and stay “unique” to the rest of the world that just keeps it’s shoes on inside. Well, let me tell you I don’t follow this custom because when you enter my apartment you’re in America. And in America we keep our shoes on inside.

I hate how uncreative and not innovative Japanese are. It’s just not in their blood. It never was since the dawn of time. However, since the dawn of time it has shown that they are good at stealing the ideas of more innovative and creative cultures though, and calling it their own. Japan invented fireworks and paper. LOL! Yeah, I’ve talked to people like this, but then again I’m living in some WWII area of Japan or something. But if I do happen to buy New Love Plus, I’m actually more worried about how I’m going to transfer my data over since I don’t even have wifi. Well, we’ll  see I suppose. I think I’m able to just go on over to the McDonalds and use it there? But I don’t have any wifi plan with them. Uggh no idea.

Well listen here Japanese, I have an innovative idea for you. So yeah lately, after reading the Papakiki manga and watching Kodomo no Jikan, I’ve been thinking about how much better Love Plus would be if it were in an elementary school setting rather than the high school setting. I honestly couldn’t believe Miu is in elementary school for one thing. But damn I want her so bad. She’s so polite and awesome for her age, and I’d want her to be my slave. Serving me coffee and cleaning my room. Maybe rub my pOnOs on her sweet ass on occassion. And it’s okay because men are supposed to rule over women. It’s in the Bible. Kodomo no Jikan is just an interesting watch and really was the MAIN cause for my desire for a Love Plus elementary school style. The 2D girls in Love Plus are just grannies compares to 2D girls in elementary school. The girls in Love Plus are old and washed up after 3 games. We need new, fresh, young blood for the next game in the portable dating sim game.

I think an elementary school setting would lend itself to more fun times that I would much rather encounter playing a Love Plus game. You can have three loli characters. Maybe similar to the 3 girls from Kodomo no Jikan? They don’t have to look the same but just as a model to the character types that would be presented in the game. Instead of some random shit boy character, the protagonist should definitely be the girl’s new homeroom teacher. Maybe to connect this game and the one in Love Plus, it could be the same protagonist who has moved to a new city? You don’t date them per say but it comes really close to it. You can help them with their homework, interact with them, and get to know them. It can have tons of stupid mini games too because I know Japanese love that shit. Also, being in an elementary school setting lends itself to being more customizable with the girls. Because elementary school girls don’t wear uniforms in Japan. So it would give the player more of an opportunity to buy clothes for them and give them gifts. I feel like this game would sell very well in Japan.

I think they should call this game Loli Plus.

Listen my brothers, I’ve been thinking about life as I sometimes do because to be an Otaking is to know and love only yourself and 2D. I’ve been thinking about how my life is perfect. I don’t need anything else. All I do is go to work, be some English speaking monkey clown for Japanese, come home and watch anime, fap, read some manga, fap and go to bed. Rinse and repeat. I don’t need anything else in life. My life is complete. I’m living in Japan. I’m living the otaku dream. If not for anime and 2D I would have no interest in Japan. I mean WHO WOULD? This place is filled with a bunch of smelly bigoted xenophobic people. They still cling to this stupid badge of high and mighty even though they’ve never won a war, and it’s 2012 already. I wish America would just take them over and force them to just make more anime. I mean their culture is pretty much just a mix of Chinese/American anyway. Maybe they’ll also learn what the words innovation, individuality and creativity mean under our rule too?

Well for me, all I need is 2D so if Japan keeps pumping that out I’m sold. I just need that and material things to keep me happy. Some of you might say that it is a lonely existence, but you’re forgetting and ignoring the very fact that relationships with people are pointless. Love yourself and only take care of yourself is my motto. Just go home and stroke that pOnOs of yours. I hate sex and find it detestable but I like fapping because it fills me with pride. I am a man. I am better than a woman. I am powerful and strong.

You see, there is no one set in stone path in life. Too many of you are letting your parents, the fascist governments, imperfect religions, or feminists tell you what is the “best” way to live life. Well for me, I don’t need others to be complete or happy with myself. No one has ever done me any good, and because I thought otherwise I was always sad. I’ve never had any true friends in life. But loving anime. Loving 2D. By LOVING Kuroneko. Has made me freer than before. I don’t have to worry about others. About their feelings. Or their petty desires. All I have to worry about and take care of is myself. I just need to come how and anime, video games, visual novels are all there. 2D is always there waiting for me. I don’t need to call it up on the phone or wait for it to come over. It’s there waiting for ME. FOR ME. That is devotional love right there.

So, I am perfect the way I am. I am a GOD, you see. I can do whatever I want because the world revolves around me. I am the main character of my world. But the world is too boring for me so I choose not to interact with it. What are people than just toys to play and use for my own enjoyment? People are no different than characters in some game. They’re animals and their feelings are just pointless chemicals going off in their head. I hate people and the vast majority of people are largely very boring so that is why I don’t worry about human relations in the 3D world. While on the other hand, I largely care about my relationship with 2D. Anime has always been there for me. In times when I’ve been happy. In times when I’ve been sad. In times when I’ve been depressed and thought of killing myself. It’s always been there and it has sheltered me. It’s always told me to never give up.

I wish some how my brain could be hooked up to some anime reality so I can just leave this 3D existence. I hate being 3D. I hate being alive in this existence. I wish I were living in anime and living an even more perfect life there. That is the only thing my life lacks. I want to be with Kuroneko in her world because the images and figures aren’t enough. Anime, to me, is like my religion. It is a perfect religion. It is my support in times of trouble. It is always there for me, and it is tangible. It isn’t some supernatural thing that isn’t there. I can see anime and I can touch it. The epic stories are the tales told down throughout time. The characters support me and show me how to become a better person each day. Goku taught me that sitting inside all day isn’t healthy so I started to go outside and exercise a f*ck ton. Evangelion showed me that other religions are a crock of shit so I stopped believing in everything supernatural. Otaku no Video has shown me that the true path to enlightenment is anime so I devote all my time to this. Keima Katsuragi has shown me you don’t need others to be perfect and live a normal life so I disregard females and just buy anime and visual novels. Oreimo has shown me my one true soul mate in life so I only buy merchandise of her. I only fap to her. I love her, and she loves me.

Like a perfectly flat chest, I am living a perfect life. My life is simple, and I don’t need to worry about other people. I don’t have to worry about social cues or having to fake some kind of feeling. I don’t care about you. 2D is all I need because it loves me unconditionally without asking for anything in return. I feel like I’ve been doing a lot of growing up lately, and I feel like these thoughts and ideas are a breakthrough for me becoming a better and true, more full 2D person. Well Valentine’s Day is coming up. I need to think of something to do with Kuroneko. Maybe buy a cake and some nice wine or something. Not sure.

As I wrote I had purchased my first eroge ever, Flyable CandyHeart. And in the amount of time that I’ve had the game, I’ve only finished two routes. Damn I can only imagine if this was a full game. It’d take me forever. Flyable Heart took me forever to finish just Amane’s route. I just don’t have the patience to consistently read a story everyday or every other day. But reading visual novels does make me feel pretty good about myself because it’s something I’ve always wanted to do and it makes me feel closer to my God, Keima Katsuragi.

Hopefully in time I will have stacks of eroge and visual novels in the future, but for now I will have to go at the pace that I am at. Speaking of buying more eroge, I also want to aim to buying more figures and anime merchandise in general. Because I am an Otaku, but not any Otaku. I am an Otaking. I figure it’s fine as long as I don’t turn into some crazy ass fat f*ck. I really don’t care if I turn into some hermit though. Relationships are pointless when you have 2D. 2D relationships are eternal, but 3D just lets you down. It abandons you and talks about you behind its back. 2D you can trust and love 100%. But I’ve told my students that I’m an Otaking and now they just call me Otaking. Oh what have I started? I’m totally not fit for this job, but hey taking advantage of the Japanese English program is fine by me.

Anyway, I feel like I just don’t BUY enough of anything. I need to be more loose with my money when it comes to things I like. But then again, I like buying things that I DO like, and buying for the sake of buying is a NO NO in my opinion. So in that respect I don’t understand these hardcore otaku that have a ton of figures, merchandise and what not. Do they honestly like a lot of the things they buy? I tend to be very picky.

So a few weeks ago I finished Amane’s route. It was good and I liked it. It wasn’t that long though. Perhaps about 15 hours to finish I’m going to wager. That’s probably very typical of a fandisk though. The sex scene seemed to have taken forever to finish. It took me about 3 days to get through it. I mean seriously just when it seemed like they were going to finish they ended up continuing again. How many times can a guy come? After about 2 times it just comes out as freaking DUST.

The plot of Amane’s route took some time after the ending to Flyable Heart. I think most of the endings do? It seems like the time spent together for Shou and Amane has been short because Amane has to do all this Rourankai stuff for the school and what not. Amane’s brother believes that Shou and Amane have yet to have sex so he scheme’s a plan up to get them to spend some time together. I didn’t like Amane’s brother too much in the original visual novel, but he was really cool here. I just liked how he was like a true bro, and concerned about Shou and everything. His plan was basically a kind of survival game on an island near the beach house they went to in the main game. So it was Shou, Amane, Gumi-chan, Akira, Kururi, Yui, Suzuno, Amane’s brother and Kei who all went. After they had their barbecue, they all went back to the mainland, but they had to find some kind of piece of paper back where they had looked for their supplies during the game. Amane’s brother had planned that Shou and Amane wouldn’t be able to leave that night. He had taken their boat and left an air mattress by the fire for them to stay warm. So yeah naturally they had sex and Shou is all like, “Yeah, I’ll stay with you forever, Amane.” It was actually pretty touching despite having really wacky dialogue. Honestly who writes this stuff? Let me share some.

While I kissed her, I rubbed her breasts up and down.
“Amane…” When I buried my face in her breasts, they wrapped me up. (Seriously who writes this???)
I sucked on her nipples and rolled them around with my tongue. (HAAAAH? Reading this is making even me embarrassed.)
“I love your voice … Please let me hear it more…” “MMMM MMMM To be so loud…. Outside… I can’t do it… MMMM”

It wasn’t even turning me on either. It just seemed really ridiculous, and more like a rape scene. I don’t get Japanese. Like, does it turn them on to have sex where it’s like a rape scene? Amane kept saying stuff like no no please. Like all DAMEEE and shit. What the hell? You’re with your boyfriend so why act like it’s a rape scene? Sigh… It’s like after going through these sex scenes it’s like even I feel like maybe playing a non-ero version would be better. But I guess it depends. I’m not sexually attracted to the characters in Flyable Heart. Maybe it has to do with the comedy of the series, but I find them more like friends than sexual objects for my fapping pleasure. So to fap to Amane, or any female character for that matter from this series just feels wrong.

Now, what that says about me fapping to Kuroneko and wanting to do naughty things to her really says something. Do I just find Kuroneko as a sexual object? Why don’t I feel the same kind of bond with her as I do the characters from Flyable Heart? Maybe it has something to do with the medium and the way I was exposed to her character?

The ending to Amane’s route was really funny. I won’t spoil it but it was a nice twist that totally left me laughing. I finished Kururi’s route also today. Maybe I’ll do a write up about it some other time, but it was a lot different in focus from Amane’s. Amane’s was more comedy and adult-like while Kururi’s was more on the moe and cute side of thing. It was fine but I just didn’t laugh as much so I felt bored at times. But it was nice to see a flat chest. MMMMM

Well, I hope I can finish more eroge in the future. I have so many to catch up on too…

Oh god, I love her so much. I don’t need anyone but her in my life.

No more fears
No more tears

Hello my dear otaku brothers. As you may have realized I’ve been sick for a while. Perhaps as long as the entire month of January. Well maybe sick isn’t the right word here. It’s more like doing some soul searching, but we all do soul searching. Even the young man I admire the most and try to emulate my life around had a few times where he too doubted himself, but in the end gained more. I too have gained more and learned more about myself and I feel stronger, more older and closer to 2D than I have ever before. I had forgotten. Who I am. I am an otaku but not a normal otaku. I am an Otaku King. I DON’T NEED 3D I HAVE 2D AND THAT’S ALL I NEED. I hate 3D, and I want to be one with the 2D realm. I was getting down and depressed about my perceived loneliness, but I had forgotten that 2D is always here for me. It never changes. It never leaves my side. 3D relations are meaningless, and if anything they’re just something to look back on and go, “Oh heh that was kinda fun.” People are just channels that cross but relations with 2D are eternal.

I hate women with big breasts and I just want them to leave the planet and die. A perfect chest is a flat one. I hate Tumblr so much. I get so many link backs from idiots who steal my content. Because that’s basically all you do on the site is steal from other people because you’re too stupid and not creative to make up your own content. Kinda like the Japanese now that I think about it… And much like this 3D bitch here. She has a rather hilarious argument. It doesn’t make sense from the start because she forgets one thing completely. Women aren’t people. They’re just objects. And who cares if I’m a misogynistic? I’m proud of my manhood, and women are inferior. Who cares if I like loli? I love loli. F*ck the haters! If gay men and women can love each other. I await a world where I can love a loli. I mean, if we’re going to live in a world where homosexuals can be married because love is love then love obviously has no boundaries anymore.

I love 2D and only 2D. Those feelings I had gotten from going to Comiket are deep within the depth of my very soul now. It was such an amazing experience. One that I have never experienced before. Much like going to Otakon and experiencing Akiba for the first time, my Otaku soul has been rekindled and I’ve grown much more than before. I love anime, manga and video games and it is the only good thing about Japan. If not for these things I would have no interest in Japan at all. I just pave my way each day not giving a damn about any one anymore. I’m 25 and I know everything. Who does some little 14 year old Japanese yakuza acting shit think he is? Thinking he’s better than me? An American born and raised? Knock knock who was it that owned everyone (not just Japan but Britain and Russia too) in WW2?

I feel older and better. I’ve grown to better appreciate the time that I have with each day. I’ve always felt like maybe it’s a waste of time to watch anime, or maybe to blog about something. But it’s really not wasted time because I chose to do it. Overall I’ve just been watching some shows here and there. Mostly just Papakiki and City Hunter. I really love the girls in Papakiki. I wish I could wake up with a 14 year old girl hugging me each morning. I wouldn’t mind if it were Kuroneko. Speaking of Kuroneko, they’re releasing an even BIGGER doll of her that I absolutely must buy. I own this one already but this new one is even bigger. I saw it when I was in Akiba over the holidays and nearly came in my pants due to desiring it. Hell, if I have this doll, I’ll have her sit on my lap all day when I’m home. I’ll only fap to her in front of me with no clothes on her doll body. Or rather I’ll first gradually take off her clothes and pretend I’m raping her or having sex with her. Ahh man it’s making he kinda turned on right now. I’ll have to fap to images of her in my Kuroneko folder after this entry.

And watching City Hunter is really interesting. I must say I’ve seen 2 other late 80s anime (KOR and Maison Ikkoku) and enjoyed them a lot. So far City Hunter has been really enjoyable. Anime seriously needs more crime fighting, city like setting with muscular badass perverted men with dark eyebrows. For serious. I bought the first volume of the manga today at Mandarake and just paging through it I can see just how censored the anime version to the original.

Well it’s getting late, and I have to work tomorrow at my burger flipping joint as usual so yeah… I really want to write more often about more things but I really feel like not a whole lot goes on as much as it used to. I’ve had a few ideas in mind but I just can’t seem to want to sit down and write because I want to watch anime or study more in my free time than write. I do spam Twitter like all day so hit me up there if you want to talk. I don’t have anyone in the 3D realm since I don’t hang out with anyone. I don’t need other people so I don’t hang around others, but I’m fine with that. I have 2D and that’s all I need. I am an Otaku King. I love 2D, and to love 2D is to have pride in the self. To only take care of one’s self. I am a god. A capturing god. The world is in my hands and I can do and achieve anything. Haters BEGONE!

Whatever happens in my life,
turn the page and come of age
Every end leads to a new beginning
of the next stage
Try to make my life complete, trust myself
Be strong and do my best
Don’t look back, carry on

My heater really doesn’t do much of anything. My living room is still a frozen ice cavern every single morning. I don’t know why I use it half the time. It does help but only slightly.  I have three blankets for my futon. I should just go ahead and buy a forth one because the ones I have don’t do anything at all for me. What I should do is buy bubble wrap because the window panes are just one solid glass panel. Definitely saw frost all on the inside of the kitchen windows this morning. There is a metal casing I put over the window panes of the living rooms, but damn it hasn’t done anything to make it any warmer. It’s weird because I find living here in Japan a lot colder than when I lived in Korea. Least Koreans knew how to build a f*cking house and insulate it. Floor heating? Genius! +1 Korea But even walking around outside over there wasn’t too bad on most days. In Japan I can’t do it. Just too damn cold. Even back home isn’t as cold as this.

I am just extra sensitive to cold weather. I hate the cold seasons and I like being able to stay warm. I have no problem with the summer since the weather is nicer and it’s warm. I hear February is just going to get colder here in Japan. I’m wondering if I should just go ahead and buy bubble wrap for the windows or just wait until next year. In any case, don’t be fooled my friends. Japan is far from being the technologically advanced place it seems to make people think it is. Poor insulation is just one of the many things that shows Japan’s low tech side.

Anyway, let me tell you that I hate those people a lot. You know why? Because they have it all wrong. No one cares if you can recite such and such about Japanese history. Hell, Japanese people don’t even care that you can because guess what? They find their history just as equally boring to learn as I do. Besides Japanese culture is boring in general anyway. It’s all stolen from Chinese culture and Korean culture to begin with so you can’t even say it’s their own culture. You might as well just study those instead. Japanese are pretty much just quasi-Koreans by another name. Hell, if you read Japanese history you’d find that if it wasn’t for the Chinese and Korean immigrants (also those captured in battles and such that mated) the native Japanese wouldn’t have even evolved past its bumblef*cking superstitious nature it was originally. Old Chinese emissaries even make fun of them in their letters and what not. Saying things like, “Yeah they’re no threat to us. All they do is stick their thumbs up their butts and are afraid of water.” basically. It still boggles my mind how this group of xenophobic peoples who can’t innovate for shit but still think they’re better than everyone are still around. If they weren’t an island nation, I’d bet you they would have been conquered and forgotten about quickly. Culturally, in my eyes, Japanese will always be last when it comes to these things in Asia because it’s such a mishmash of the other superior histories/cultures of the rest of Asia. And maybe that is why it attracts so many people because it is one giant contradiction like that. But perhaps that is an entry for another day.

But what I wanted to get to is that I don’t really get how knowing all these pointless facts/aspects about a country makes your love for it any more stronger than some pointless facts/aspects I happen to know about the same country. I’ve studied Japanese history and honestly it’s not my bag. It’s boring. Maybe you like it. That’s fine. Do what interests you. I will honestly never understand what compels people to degrade other people because perhaps their interests aren’t of the same subset as theirs in the broader genre of terms. For example, liking anime but then saying I like anime Naruto and Bleach but maybe not K-ON. Bad example probably but you get what I mean. It confuses me because can’t we all just understand we like anime? Well except for you guys who think anime has just been going downhill and anime was good back in the 80s/90s. You guys are scum and seriously need to GTFO, but I will write about that in another entry. Then again these divides exist even outside things like hobbies. I don’t understand it, but it happens.

And yes, sure I like visiting touristy stuff about Japan. Who doesn’t like visiting things about the foreign country they’re in? But I’m not going to sit down and read a book on Japanese history or Buddhism in Japan. That shit is boring, and just plain shit. The real meat and fun about Japan culturally (and basically any other country for that matter) is essentially its made up modern culture. The samurai, the geisha, J-pop, loli, manga, video games and anime to name a few. If anything that’s the real culture of Japan because that stuff all originated HERE in Japan, and wasn’t just some disgusting upchuck of things some Japanese monks put together for a quick yen in the year 740 or whatever from one single line of translated Chinese Buddhist scripture. So yeah it does make my blood boil when I meet these kinds of people who seem to think they’re a little better than me because of my interests.

But when you get down to it does it matter? I don’t think so. It’s the year 2012 and the Internet is more prevalent as it has ever been before. We’re becoming more and more global as a people because of it. I don’t think it’s all that bad to just pick and chose certain aspects about cultures I might like and dislike. I like Japanese popular media, but I hate Japanese “culture”. I like that I’m American and from a western mindset but I hate that everyone doesn’t seem to have any level of respect for anyone and feels they’re entitled to certain things for free like movies, and music. (Damn why did SOPA have to get shelved?) We all pick and chose what works for us. Beliefs, religion, ideals, lifestyles…  I don’t like your precious Japanese “culture”. To me, Japanese culture is trashy in the same way you claim to say the anime and manga I like is trashy.

I’m done. I just need to stop hanging around people. Period. I just cannot interact with humans in 3D it appears. We’re just not compatible at all. That’s fine because I have 2D.

Shit bros and I thought Ro-Kyu-Bu made a fire in my pants. That was nothing compared to the blazing forest fire Papakiki turns them into. I thought liking elementary girls was a little scummy but damn it I’m starting to like 3 year olds now. Call me out if you may but remember my friends that love is love, and love can transcend gender and age. If two people of the same sex can marry and form a loving relationship surely someday loving a child in such a way can be possible. I mean it was done 1000s of years ago, and it was even done in the Bible. Anyway, I want to take the 3 year old girl home and have her be my girlfriend slave.

I know I’m just going to end up wanting to be in the guy’s shoes by the end of the series. It happened in Ro-Kyu-Bu and it’s going to happen here. I mean he’s not even blood related to any of the girls except the one. So might as well just f*ck them. I would if I knew them. They are just wanting to get into his pants anyway. I think this probably why I would make a bad role model for any child anywhere in world. It’s probably better it’s not me teaching in a foreign country and this depressed idiot.

The writers here at MACHERA do NOT endorse gay marriage. It’s wrong and the Bible says such people should be stoned to death.